I realise my first few posts have been really chipper and positive – and I am trying to think like that but there is another side.
I am feeling very odd at the moment. My daily structure has gone, my social life has largely gone (we had a lot of fun at work and I have a lot of friends there) and a source of my self esteem has gone (I was good at my job).
Most of my life has been rushing around with never enough time to catch up with chores / hobbies etc. Suddenly I have the time. I am going slowly and being kind to myself but I am already noticing feeling lonely – yesterday I didn’t speak to anyone after saying goodbye to my husband at 7am until he came home at 5….. I had a good day, did lots of interesting stuff but that’s no good. And this morning was the first one where I couldn’t see the point in getting up (and actually I am still in bed typing this at 8.30…).
I feel very very strange but I can’t put my finger on it, it’s just hovering under the surface.
Still, no-body said this is going to be easy!
I did the picture of sails above using an app called Autodesk Sketchbook Pro on my Samsung tablet. It’s fun experimenting.